Thankful to be Latter-Day Saint

Well, what a couple of weeks it has been. I think I have been to hell and back in more ways than one. Without getting into all the nitty-gritty stuff about that stupid flu/viral cold/ or whatever it was...I really mean that I am thankful to be a latter-day saint.

I have had tons of time to think, even through clouds of pain, and I remember when I cracked the door to Satan. It was when I was released from Relief Society. I worked so hard for the sisters and it seemed that I was relying on the Saviour so much of the time. As time goes on I seem to be moving farther away from the inspiration and relying more on my intuition, which is not very good at the best of times.

As I was working last evening, trying to finish up a tough accounting job with Mike, I listened to the music from Women of Destiny. I cried as I thought - I AM ONE OF THOSE WOMEN. I have devine potential. Yes, I have veered off the track a tad but I can still see that wonderful light. I know what I have to do and I have been taught how to do it. So I guess what I am saying is - kick me in my butt - and start me going.

I love my Heavenly Father and my Saviour Jesus Christ. I am grateful for the knowledge that they live and love me. Even though I have complained most of this day. Even though I have been made to feel so very inadequate, especially taking the time off last week. I am grateful that I have a job and it is my responsibility to help my co-workers see the light of the Saviour through me. Wow, what a responsibility.

I adore my dearest Mike. I am so grateful for his support and his love, even when I am a witch. I love my darling children, their significant others and my awesome Dustin & Sariah. I love my mom & dad and will be forever grateful for the way they raised me. Sorry mom & dad if I didn't always make the right choices. I love each of you who take time to read my ramblings. I love each of you who have touched my life in very special ways and have helped to fill me with the desire to be better. I love life and it is about time I showed it. I have to make the changes now. I don't want Satan any further in my door. I hope I can make a difference.

My dear friend Norah left me a note when she retired from here (the first time) Remember - Choose to make this a great day!!! How true this is.

Thanks and bye for now.

November 2, 2009

Hi all - I can't believe that it is November already. Time is cerainly flying by. I have not been doing much. But, I am happee to say that my meds are working and I am feeling much better. I am still very tired but I am not aching as much.

Things at work are still busy. We are suppose to be in our down season but I have not seen that happening. I am grateful to have my job when so many others are without. I was walking down the street today after I parked my car at a meter. I needed to go to the pharmacy and I got a chicken burger platter (I know I should not have), from Deluxe French Fries. There is a soup kitchen across from my work and it is very, very busy. As I walked by a man and a woman who were sitting on the grass beside the sidewalk, the woman said "oh dinner - is that for us?" I just continued walking, feeling bad. Then the woman said "you are suppose to say - if you had a job you could get your own". I was then feeling even worse. I could ask the question why are some people challenged so much more than others, but I know the answer. We are all challenged but in different ways. My challenges are not like yours and yours are not like mine. I feel blessed to be able to get through a day at a time right now and I also feel blessed to have a doctor who cares.

I went to Scrapgala a couple of weeks ago. WOW!! It was awesome. We had two wonderful teachers. One was Lorene from California representing Kaiser Craft and Leica representing Canadian Scrapbooking also teaching about Tattered Angel Glimmer Mist. Just to be with my scrap buddies was great. We are a close group. I love scrapping. I love making memories that all of you will someday be thankful for. I can hardly wait for Saturday for the "grand opening" day crop for the ScrapShack. I am so excited for Deb.

I really have some work to do tonight but I worked so hard at it yesterday that I am really tired of it. I hate doing the accounting thing at home. I missed going to conference this weekend in Fredericton. I have to say I felt really bad for that. I should have been more persistant that I wasn't going to work. I am grateful for my family and friends who don't judge me when I make wrong choices.

Well, I guess I should go and get in my jammies and decide what I need to do. I wish I could get back at my scraproom but David has been helping and doesn't like me very much right now. The things I need done, require help of stronger people. Perhaps I can get that done sometime soon. I really want my own room.

Thanks for all those who read this. I just want you all to know that I know that God lives and He has a daily influence in my life. I am so grateful for the path he has shown me and I continually pray for guidance to have the strength to follow that path. I love my family and I am grateful for all of them. Take care. Remember, only you can choose to make this a great day!!!