On Vacation

Hi everyone:

I am on vacation well actually I am almost over my vacation. I wanted this to be a calming, revitalizing and do nothing vacation. So far that has not happened. It is hard to take vacation when you are surrounded by people you love and want to be with. My dad, Robb, Aliss, Sariah, Jenn, Dustin & Heather. So I feel like I am up, down and all around. It has been really hot and very nice until today. It rained most of the day but has been sunny since late afternoon. I was in the pool all day yesterday and Sariah was there almost as long. She loves the water. Jenn & Dustin came up on Tuesday & Wednesday. Dustin loves the water and swims like a fish. Jenn loves the sun, good weather, the pool and of course good company. Heather, Bob & Brian have made wonderful supper meals. I have been spoiled. Riley & his mom came to stay with Heather for awhile. She is a proud grandma. Bob is quite the grandpa as well.

I have done a little scrapbooking but have been really busy being with everyone. I am very blessed. Dustin & Sariah are growing so very fast. Before long they will be old enough that they wll not want to be with nanny anymore. That time will sadden me. I love them so much.

I am very grateful for Bob helping Robb with a job & training. I am grateful for Bob's wonderful comments on Robb's work ethics and his character. I know that Bob is looking forward to a long and prosperous companionship with Robb. RIGHT!!!!

Well I am sitting here with my dad. I love him so much. He is a wonderful dad and I feel so blessed to have been raised by him and my mom. Daddy is not feeling very well during this hot and humid weather. He has a very hard time with his breathing. My heart goes out to him. I wish I could help him be better. I know that he misses my mom.

Well I guess I will close for tonight. I might get another page of scrappin done. Tomorrow is Friday and it is almost the end of my vacation. I wish for another week or four. I miss my sweetie and and excited to see him on Saturday. Take care everyone.

Vacation Week Coming

Hi all - Gosh it has been a few days since I posted anything. Not really any excuses but sometimes you just don't want to put your thoughts to words. I am missing my family terribly this week. I wish you were all around so you could be dropping in on your mom & dad. I look at my precious Dustin & Sariah on my screen every morning I turn my computer on. That gives me a smile but it also makes me miss them more.

I am going to take the last week in July off and go to my dads to just sit and veg. I am not sure if my sweetie is coming with me for that week or if he is going to wait to take his vacation later. I am excited to have my Fridays off but with Mike working it is hard to get away early for the weekend.

I just want to finish this post by letting you all know how much I love your dad. He is my life and more times lately, my lifeline. I am so greatly blessed having him in my life and by my side. I am so grateful to have him as my eternal companion. He supports me in everything I go through and some is not pleasant. I love his laugh and yes, his whining. I love everything about him and my hope and my wish would be that each of my children would enjoy this kind of love.

Enough of the sappy stuff. I am going to close so I can go to bed. Remember this thought that my sweetie told me tonight -

Life is 10 % of what happens to you and 90% of how you react.

I guess I should be better at reacting. Much luv......

If you chance to meet a frown..do not let it stay!

Golly gee - what do I want to share today? Certainly not what is going on in my head. Soooo I thought I would share a couple of random pictures with you. The first is a picture of my little Jordan. He was just shaved like a lion. I think he is the "most" adorable cat. He loves to be shaved. I think it makes him feel lighter (dah). This makes me smile. The second is a really "cool" picture. This is our "granny mobile" after a late winter storm. I can look at this picture now and smile. I didn't much like it then but isn't it gorgeous now? I just wanted anyone who might possibly read this to smile. Smile at these pictures. Smile at the thought of a dear friend. Smile at a wonderful memory.

Sometimes life deals us a bad hand. Some of us have really bad hands, but that doesn't mean that our whole life needs to be like that. What am I trying to say. My "bad hand" right now is this stupid fibromyalgia. When I was first diagnosed I had a really bad month. Then things got better and I thought "if this is it, I can deal with it". It has been like that off and on for years. Sometimes bad - sometimes good - lots of people have it so much worse than me and although I hurt I could keep on going, being productive and living life. The last while I have been on the sometimes bad time. Now I know that there is so much that could be worse, but right now my fibro happens to be it. Poor, poor me!!!!!!!!! It is so hard to describe how I am feeling and it is hard to deal with it alone. But then I think of all the great advise I give others. I am not alone - I am facing a challenge, but I am not alone. I have so much to be thankful for. I know I have a Heavenly Father and that He knows me and loves me. I know that my Saviour sacrificed for me. I was born of goodly parents and I love my sisters. I love my eternal companion, Mike more than I can say. I adore our children - every one of them - Jennie, Jackie, Robbie, Addie & Davie. I love their choice in companions - Marc, Brent, Aliss & Jason. Words cannot describe the love I have for my grandson Dustin and my granddaughter Sariah. I love my dear "adopted" American daughter Janet & her family. How blessed I am. And to make everything wonderful, I just have to smell orange koolade - right Addie???

Talk later.

2Sday - Yeah!!

I like Tuesday. I like the way it is spelled and the way you sound it. Just say it with me -- T u e s d a y". My day was super busy at work. I am still trying to finish up my three December year-ends due last week and my 5 personals that were due a few weeks ago.

Bruce came to me today to let me know that the four day weeks were going to start. I will be taking Friday's of and Heather will be taking Monday's off. YAHOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My scrap class was going to go to the movie but I really didn't want to go. Just didn't feel like it. I ended up going over the The Scrap Shack to complete a Basic Grey class but Amy and I talked all evening. I had the most absolute time. It will be recorded as down time in the journal I am to be writing.

I came home, took Tylenol & others, caught a glimpse of the funeral for Michael Jackson. It was so sad that I changed the channel. I ate a piece of pizza and then came to write my blog. I am going to be going to bed now and my doctor has told me that I need to try harder to get my sleep. There are other things but that's what is needed right now. Soooooooooooo good night all my family & friends.

Monday - Why do we have to have Mondays!

I could work twice as long on Tuesday, Wednesday & Thurdsday and still take Friday off and I could still be ahead of the game. I have a really nice office as you can see from above. The chair was given to my by a really neat Chinese client. The daffodils are for making a donation to Heart Association or Cancer.

I now have my desk pointing the front of my office with that ugly brown picture on my right side and the beautiful fireplace at my back.

Just wanted to share with all of you (yeah) where I spent my life lately. Sure could use some scrapbooking tables.

Hope tomorrow will be better than today. My mind was in Winnipeg, or off coast of Hawaii, or in Salt Lake City, or Fredericton, Oromocto and here in Moncton. Anywhere but on numbers.

Here's hoping that Tuesday will bring everyone 1 step closer to prayers being answered or kindness being offered.

I love all of you.

Far From Perfect

Today is Sunday and I am sitting on my bed while Mike is in church. In 5 minutes sacrament meeting will be finished and he will be taking Carol Steeves to Saint John to get her Partr. Blessing. Pauline Lutes is going with them because I am not. I hope they have safe travel and that Carol feels all that she should feel when receiving this blessing of the Lord.

Why am I not going and why am I NOT in church? Long and short - I made "another" wrong choice. I stayed home from church because I was very sore. I was tired and I hurt. Even after taking yet another bunch of Tylenol I still hurt. I have been working very hard for the last 6 months and it has certainly taken its toll. At first my mind was like an eight lane highway at rush hour. Now it is just numb. For the last four years we have been able to plan an away vacation to ease through the down side of taxes and they were awesome. This year, because of health reasons, we are going to have to stay on the Canadian side.

Oh boo hoo. At least I have a job, an awesome husband, great children and wonderful grandbabies. I have a Heavenly Father who knows and loves me and an elder brother, my Saviour, Jesus Christ who sacrificed all for me. I can sit here and feel the wind from the fan and smell the scent of rain through the window. I can see what I am typing and I am hear the sounds around me. I AM BLESSED!

Sometimes we have to go down a step on the ladder to see what was on the one above. I am great for not seeing what is under my nose. It is truly a wonderful day and I am sorry I started out wrong but I am grateful that I know the difference.

HAVE A WONDERFUL DAY AND MAY IT BE FULL OF LOTS TO REMIND YOU OF THE BLESSINGS THAT WE ALL HAVE IN OUR LIVES AND WHERE THESE BLESSING COME FROM.

Saturday is a special day!!

Saturday is a special day it is the day you get ready for Sunday. Started that way but got winded really fast. I started by cleaning up some of the discusting basement. That is where our cats spend their time when they are not upstairs. It smells a little well not really - it smells a lot. Love my cats, Jordan & Gus, but really hate their smell and the car hair. The basement was so damp that even with the dehumidifier the floors wouldn't dry. We will have to turn it on high and see if tomorrow is better- or Monday rather.

Tomorrow dad is taking Carol Steeves to Saint John for her Partr. Blessing. I think that Pauline Lutes is going with him so there are two as I can't go down this week. I have a not so good Saturday. My fibro has been out of control and to boot my head ached, I think because of the weather. WE had really good garlic fingers and pizza tonight from Diesel Pizza. A great place to buy pizzas. Even ones like peanut butter or macaroni & Cheese and other questionable ones.

Jacq and Brent came over to watched National Treasure 1 & 2. They were great. I actually liked them. Today went really fast. Of course counting the naps I had to take, which seemed to be even more that when I was pregnant. Hope to finally have a four day work week starting next week. I pray tht they will see how much I need it.

I hope to go to my Basic Grey Class to morrow. I love scrappboking so much and my happiness thins each day I can't do it. I love journally and telling the stories and in doing the archiving my memories for the time I might forget.

Thanks for spending time with me. Take care.

Friday At Last

Thank heavens for Fridays. Even long and wet ones. My day at work seemed to go on forever. After lunch I was the only one there - dedicated or stupid??? No one needs to answer that. We got home and changed and then went to to a Chinese place for supper. It was yummy. My friend Therese's girls were at YW camp here in NB. It was only for 1 day & 2 nights and they were going kayaking. We were going to pick the girls up on Saturday morning and bring them back from the camp and wait for Therese to come from Halifax but because of the looming storm the camp was cut short and they came back tonight. We picked them up at the chapel and took them 1/2 of the way to Halifax ( well nearly half) so Therese wouldn't have to drive all the way. Mike was happy he got to try out his new GPS thingy. The girls never stopped talking.

I have tons I have to do this weekend & tons I want to do. I wonder which will win. Our ward picnic at Fundy Park for tomorrow was cancelled because of impending weather. I just got an email to remind me of my Basic Grey scrapbooking class for Sunday afternoon. These are awesome classes. I love scrappin so much. I haven't had time for doing any but I have been taking tons of pictures. For those of you who don't know, not that I have tons reading this, I have a new wonderful camera. I don't know how to use it except to point and click but I already love it. Mike got me a Nikon D90 for our anniversary. I have been trying to find classes to take and so far not so good. Hopefully there will be something before Christmas.

Well I guess I should close this and try to sleep. Mike is laying here beside me snoring up a storm and I am having another night of insomnia. Thank heavens tomorrow is Saturday. Sending my love to all those who are close to me. You are all forever in my heart. Take care.

ADDIE - JAY - WEDDING PARTY

This is a picture of our sweet Addie. Her sweetheart is Jason. Her maid of honor is Amanda Hamilton. The other two beauties on the female side are Addie's sisters Jenn & Jacq. Jason's best man was Aaron his brother and the two other great guys were Jason and (heck) I can't remember. Anyway he was really cute. The wedding was wonderufl CONGRATULATION ADDIE & JASON.

Mumble Jumble & Emotion

Soooo - today has been very, very long. I taught a new girl simply accounting this morning and then I had to work on an account that belongs to a wonderful couple who have had their books done by someone this year. That someone made a complete mess. I am trying to get them straight. They were suppose to be done for yesterday and even though I worked all day at them I still didn't get them done.

Dad bought one of those new direction talker things. They tell you where to go, well not quite like that. They help you find direction. He is all excited about this. When he hooked it up to the car he came in with a big smile and asked me if I would go for a drive with him. I said okay as long as it included ice cream. We drove with this thing going in2 meters turn a right then another right. In 5 meters turn left. It is a man's voice and it could drive you a little crazy. I was thinking that I would like to have one of these hooked up to heaven. It would be so nice to be reminded when we have taken the wrong direction. Golly - could this be what the Holy Ghost actually does for us. I think so. They have patterned the GPS after the Holy Ghost. How awesome. We did finish the drive and I did get ice cream - not my usual toffee nut crunch but I actually got bubblegum. That's going outside my litte box.

I am trying to think when I want to have a few days off. I need to refresh and take back some of my life. I have given it all to accounting for so long that I have a hard time finding it. Work has not mentioned anything about having Fridays off for the summer. Maybe they will next week. I sure hope so. I have worked so very hard for them.

My heart is saddened by those who are close to me having to fight challenges and heartbreak. I "know" those feelings and I know that doubt, despair, judgement and unhappiness can be tools of Satan. I have a dear friend who was just told that she has cancer and it is in the agressive stages. I have a daughter that we have "adopted" and she has lost her little boy. He was premature and was only here for a few days. Another dear family just lost their mom to cancer. Another very special kid who we have know forever has gotten neck deep and further into gambling and other stuff. I could go on an on. But I need to, for myself and for these special people express my feelings that there is a way to help them get through it. They have to lay their challenges, etc., at the feel of the Saviour. It is have to see past your nose when it is your trial or challenge. We can all see what someone else should be doing to make things better for themselves. I want to challenge everyone who will read this, well perhaps every two, to just have faith and trust in the Lord. Take that first "meaningful" step towards recognizing what you have to do to be able to hear the still small voice. Perhaps we think, when we are overburdened, we can't talk with our Heavenly Father. Just get on your knees and let Him know you want to hear him. Just wait for thise feelings of love to come from Him. Recognize them and the react to the. There will always be things that happen in our lives that we can say "why" me Lord. Perhaps we should have the strength to be able to say why not me. Let us learn our lessons wll so we will bw able to help others in their time of need. AND REMEMBER - time must go one. It it seems like people are pulling away to continue with their lives, and you are still back there with your feelings and heartbreak. At so point in time - TIME WILL GO ONE. The question will be are you going be ready for it to do so.

I love my Father in Heaven and His Son Jesus Christ. I love the plan of happiness knowing why and where helps me to be more positive in my dealings with people. I pray that I can be more kind and loving, more open to the feelings of others. I pray that the feeling I have on the inside about many things can come out when they are needed and they can help people, especially those I love. I love all of my family. I love my eternal sweetheart and I am so very grateful for his strength and guidance. For his acceptance of me and my many many shortcomings.

Take care and if you want anything answered or talked about, just let me know. Have a good evening and an even better tomorrow.