Hi everyone:
This weekend certainly had its highs and its lows. To me, it was a very emotional weekend. Why you say????
My sweet Addie is going back on Wednesday morning. Jay surprised me by bringing Addie home for our January 15Th Christmas celebration. How awesome that was. I had my family together, all of them in one place. My heart was so happee!!!! The time came that I had to say goodbye. I don't want her to go. I want all my children here. I know that is being very selfish, but at times I think that is okay and this is one of them.
My sister is back with her husband. I am glad for her. I pray that Her husband is back for the right reasons. She seemed very happee and that is the main concern. I, too, had feelings over this whole breakup. My feelings seem harder to heal. He said something about my dad and my sister said something about me not being there for my dad. My heart broke and is still heavy over that. I know that these things were said as they were blowing off steam about everything. But that doesn't seem to matter. I have my work to do in this aspect of my life.
One of my extremely high points was that I was to hug or hold and kiss all my grandbabies this weekend. Now my Dustin would not want to be call a grandbaby as he is 12 and is my grandson. Being able to be with them helped me to find a place in my heart that was not overcome with sadness, fear or anxiety. I love them so very much.
I loved being with my children. Jackie and Brent came up with us and as usual they were wonderful to be with. Jenn & Marc went fishing with friends and caught a couple of bass. Nice go "girls". They were the ones who pulled the fishes out.
My most heartfelt part of the weekend was seeing my dad and seeing that he is failing in health. My heart is screaming out..."I want my dad to be with me for more earthly time". He was so very quiet. I know that one of his medicines help him with all of the anxiety that he is feeling, so it mellows him, but my heart is so heavy with thoughts of living here without him.
He spends so much time by himself. My sister works days and she had some things she does in the evenings that she needs to do for herself. I am so sad that he is sitting by himself so much of these last days or years. My prayer is that my children who life close to him would give of a little of their time more often, lots more often, to help make the time he have left better for him. Jenn & Robb have been given that responsibility. I know that your lives are so full as it is but I know they will be sweeter when you give this service to your Grampy. Please go as much as you can.
I must go and get ready for work. This is "that" time of the year. I want to be ready but I am not sure about that.
Take care all those who chance upon this blog. I would want you to know that I know that my Heavenly Father and my Saviour Jesus Christ live. They live and they know and love each of us. I know that if strive to live to reach our potential we will be a happier person. I am so grateful for the restored gospel of Jesus Christ and the direction that it gives me. I love my family. They are all part of my eternal family. I am so blessed!!!!!
And to leave you with something I am going to try to live - thanks Janet, I hope you don't mind -
"WE CAN DO HARD THINGS".
