A Time to Ponder

When is it "not" a time for pondering? What a month this have been! There have been so many ups and downs that I am dizzy from this life rollercoaster. Things are changing everyday and life is moving fast - way too fast.

I was telling Mike just yesterday that when I sit in front of the computer my heart seems to be so very sad and I feel very lonely. I am sad because a very good friend has been fighting for her life. She passed through the veil, very peacefully, yesterday. It has given me food to ponder. Renie has taught me so much through her example and the writings of her family. The feelings they shared during their vigil at their mom's side has been heartfelt. They talked of her peaceful acceptance for things to come, her knowledge of the plan of happiness. I pray I can continue with these lessons.

I was also taught by the example of Janet & Ray King. Janet is our "adopted" American daughter. She served her mission here in the Canada Halifax Mission. We met her and immediately felt a connection. Since that time we have always considered her a part of our family. How excited we were when she told us they were pregnant. To make a very heartbreaking story, one I don't have the permission to share, shorter, little Blaze Lyle King was born too premature to live very long. Janet & Ray were blessed to have him for a few short days then he left to return to his Heavenly Father. My heart broke as well. I followed their blog because I didn't want to impose on this very sacred time. I was so awed over the words that Janet shared. I was there every minute and hour through Janet's words. My heart ached for her and Ray. I was also comforted by her strength and her testimony shared. I love Blaze and I love Janet & Ray. They will have the opportunity to raise him and they are very blessed to have each other.

My daughter, Addie, is getting married on June 20th. I am so excited to see her and Jason. She has been in Winnipeg for almost 3 years. I can hardly wait to see her. It has been hard to get the wedding stuff done because she has not been there. There doesn't seem to be many plans. When I spoke with Addie about it, she just said the wedding will be nice but the family reunion is what she is excited about.

Yes, it has been a time to ponder. Not always in a positive way. Sometimes I think we over think things. Perhaps I should learn from the examples of those above, those I love most dearly. I should stop to smell the roses. I should learn and understand more of the plan of happiness and last but certainly not least, I should always realize the importance of families and the strength there is in the family unit.

Is my heart lightened? Not really. But I have a direction I know that I must follow. I know that I am part of my Heavenly Father's plan. I do have purpose and it is up to me to find what that is. I am so very grateful for my Heavenly Father and for His love for me. I am grateful that I am not alone now or ever.