I wish I could...

Hi everyone.

I just was thinking of all the things - I wish I could. I wish I could shut down this computer and go home. I wish I could pull out my magazine and read it. I wish I could really get into my work and just finish it. I wish I could find the energy to clean, I mean really clean my house. ALL OF IT. I wish I could get a really good hair cut. You know, one where you didn't have to get used to. One that you just knew it was for you. I wish I could spend a few days with "ALL" my children. Time means so much and it is going by so very fast. I wish I could get a tummy tuck - oh yeah!!! BUT I would be too afraid of any side effects. I wish I could go for a massage everyday. I know that my back and my neck would feel so much better. Oh, just to be pampered, that would be so nice. I wish I could go south this year but I am afraid of not being able to get the insurance we would need without paying an arm and a leg for it. I wish I could be happy about the plane trip to Winnipeg. BUT I am so excited to see Addie Rae & Jay. I hope she is planning some site seeing stuff for us to do. I wish I could take my other kids with me. I wish I could have enough money saved so Mike could retire and just take care of me. He would love that and I would love to get him out of where he works. I wish I could just get in the car and drive and drive. I don't know where I would end up. Perhaps it would be just where I started from. Who knows.

I wish I could visit with my mom, just for a few minutes. I hope she is proud of who I have become, even with all of my weaknesses. My mom could comfort me through them all. Please don't take life and time for granted. It is over much too early and for some way earlier that we would have thought. Take time to make memories and that is my next I wish I could make wonderful memories for my children - all of them - so that when I am not here they can feel of my love for each of them, individually. I am so very thankful at this moment for what the Lord has given me. Just writing a few of the things above I have put a smile on my face. I want to be thankful for what I have and not for all the thing that I wish I could have or do.

I just have to try harder to do and be who I was sent here to be. Thanks for listening and helping me to get over this small hiccup in my day. Have a great day and please take time to make a memory.

Til' next time.

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